A.M.A.Z.I.N.G.

Dah-lings,

I know I've mentioned them in a video post... but I have to RAVE about them in the written word, I just HAVE to!  So, there are these 2 amazing women that have started a societal revolution; Beauty Redefined (http://beautyredefined.net) is helping me change my life, change my attitude, and change my perception of myself.  I'm not even joking.  Their website/movement has helped me convert from wanting the body of a sexy celebrity to wanting celebrate my beautifully feminine body!

In the beginning of this whole "total makeover," the motivation was to become beautiful.  To have the body and looks that would drive men crazy, and subsequently make me happy.  I WAS SO WRONG.  

I've often wondered why I can see the beauty in others but not in myself.  I'm sure you all do the same thing.  You see all the wonderful, beautiful, amazing qualities of others, but you see very few in yourself.  Am I right?  Yes.  Beauty Redefined is helping me alter my personal blue print of beauty.  All those qualities I "think" I need to possess physically to have value or worth... they were created, manipulated, and influenced by the media and by society.  WOAH!  For a person who "doesn't like to be told how to live, think, or feel" I'm sure being told how to live, think, and feel.  Beauty Redefined helped me make that realization and is helping me have the motivation to love who I am more and more each day.

Understanding the real ideal of beauty is helping me accept and love myself.  I've NEVER felt like this before.  Beauty Redefined has helped me come to several key realizations:

1. I am not defined by my weight.
2. I am beautiful.
3. The women on TV and in magazines really don't look like that.
4. Real women with real curves are beautiful!  Reality is beautiful.
5. Being healthy and happy is more important than meeting the false societal requirements of said "beauty".
6. My value is not determined by my sex appeal to men.

Now, don't get me wrong.  I still have days, occasional bouts, and frequent moments of "I'm not pretty, I'm fat, I'm undesirable." HOWEVER it seems like every time that happens... Beauty Redefined posts something that helps remind me that I am beautiful.  That I am real.  That I have value.

THANK YOU.  THANK YOU.  THANK YOU.

The joy and freedom you've helped me achieve is beyond explanation.  I wish everyone could feel and understand what I'm barely beginning to.  It's a personal goal to help others achieve what you've helped me achieve.

So followers... FOLLOW THEM.  Because they are A.M.A.Z.I.N.G.  I'm proud to be part of the "fight" to take back beauty.


Just sayin'.

MUCH LOVE
-Mych

OMEffingG

GUYS!!!

Holy shiz balls.  You're not going to believe this...

So, last week I started the push for more weight loss.  Since that weigh in I've lost 10 lbs!

Because I'd gained 3 lbs back (thanks Aunt Flo), I've really only lost 7.  But who cares!  I'm still ecstatic!

That makes a total of 48 lbs of weight loss!  A.W.E.S.O.M.E.

Just sayin'.

Love ya!

-Mych

Video Post #3

My Dearests,

I LOVE YOU.

And I ramble... a lot... in this video post.

I also use the words "super" and "like" extensively.

My apologies.

-Mych

Balance

Dah-lings!

My next 6 weeks are going to be INTENSE.  Expect weekly updates regarding my weight loss, goal updates, and general AWESOMENESS.

And in 6 weeks, I'll post another picture timeline!  Gah!  I'm so excited... I can barely contain it!

Okay, okay.

I need to settle down.  It's time to talk about something pertinent.

I had some trouble deciding on what I wanted to blog about today/this week.

One suggestion was to talk about "how stupid boys are, haha".  Which, while valid, is simultaneously voided by the fact that we women folk are pretty stupid too.

I've decided to take a different avenue today.

I want to talk about CONFIDENCE.

Now, I've never been exceptionally good with the self-confidence thing.

Part of my whole, entire self-help, top to bottom, inside and out, makeover, was to help me discover confidence. I know that to a lot of people, my total makeover may seem vain, shallow, and selfish.  Odds are, you think that because you've never dealt with a lack of confidence so strong, that you actually hated yourself.

What!?  Mychal, you hated yourself!?  I don't believe that.


Believe it baby.  It's the truth.  I was rooted so deep in my self hatred that I couldn't allow anyone else to not hate me. Vicious cycle isn't it?  That's why I was a total and complete b*tch... especially to guys.  If you feel unloveable, you refuse to believe that anyone could ever love you... so you make sure they can't love you.  I was so disgusted by myself that I was sure no guy could ever be attracted to me.  I believed that all men found me repulsive and as such, I treated them accordingly.  This was never the case... but I was to damn dumb at the time to figure it out.

But never fear!  I'm growing out of it!

I have decided that I hate the fact that other people can see your value and beauty long before you ever see or recognize it yourself.  That is so BASSAKWARDS.

My new look/body is gaining some attention.  Which, while flattering, is freaking me the eff out.  It's so hard to believe that I'm "hot", "sexy", "attractive", "beautiful", or even just "cute".

But you know what... I AM. I hate the fact that society thinks it gets to dictate the ideals of beauty.  WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE!?  I'd like to decide what I think is attractive and what is unattractive.  I hate people who try to tell me what to do/feel/think.  So you know what... I think I'm eye candy.  Yeah, that's right.

And you know what... I think you're eye candy too!  And I think we should all own the fact that we're hella good looking.

My new mantras include (but are not limited to):

Pretty is what you ARE, beauty is what you DO.
and
I'm sexy and I know it.


And even if I can't accept them all the time... they're true.  So I need to get over it.

I will be a balanced compilation of self-awareness, compassion, intelligence, humility, and confidence because THAT is what makes a person "hot", "sexy", "beautiful", and "cute".

Woof.

I now step down from my soap box.

Until next time my loves!

-Mych

Timeline... ish

Weight loss picture/timeline...ish  thing --

Me at my heaviest.

Me, 30 lbs lighter.

Me, 41 lbs lighter.

Differences?  I see a few.

Love you dolls!

-Mych

Unexpected

My darlings!  I'm in Provo (WHAT!?).  Yes, I am.  Hard to believe as it may be, I'm here and I'm having a great time!

I have to tell you something that, while unexpected, is extremely satisfying and fulfilling.  EGO BOOSTER.

Boys LOOK at me down here.  For the first time in my life, guys are looking at me.  They're looking at me in a "I'm checking you out way."

Exciting!!!!

One stopped on the street while he was walking to school to check me out with my wavy hair, my figure showing blue shirt, white shorts, and bright red wedges.  Ok... so I'll admit that I was trying to look hot, and I was trying to be noticed... and it worked!  I pulled it off and it felt AMAZING.

And.....

Later that night I went to Macey's (wearing under armour sweats and a red shirt) and another guy hit on me!  This time verbally.  And yes... I flirted back.  It felt...

AWESOME.

EPIC.

SATISFYING.

ELATING.

EFFING FANTASTIC.

I feel so good!  I'm really loving the new me.  I can't wait to lose another 40 lbs... if losing the first 1/2 is this amazing, I can't fathom what the end result is going to be like.

Woot!

Love you dolls!  Ya'll are the best!  Your support continues to propel me toward success.

-Mych

Video Post #2

The last video was crap.

My apologies.

Much love my darlings!

-Mych

Video Post!

Thoughts???

Do we like?

Love,
Mych

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