Little Red Dress

So...

I have a few exciting tidbits to share today.

1. I bought my first pair of size 14 pants today!  Huzzah!  That was my goal size.  They are a little snug... but it just gives me additional incentive to lose the last bits of weight.  Plus... if I'm a 14/16 right now that means I can get LOADS smaller.  AWESOME.

2. I want a dress.  And I am thinking about purchasing this one...

Thoughts?

3. I am now, officially, moved into my room!  I have PRIVACY.  Wonder of wonders, miracle of miracles! The most wonderful aspect is that my room is big enough and has enough room to entertain visitors/guests.  Now I just need to find a few people who can stand me enough to come over.

4. I'm feeling much better emotionally.  Crazy thing, I've been doing something I haven't done in a very long time.  Praying.  I've noticed that it is helping.  It is helping a lot.  I feel a lot more patient, and relaxed.  I also don't feel as lonely or lost anymore.  I guess, overall, I just feel happier.  Funny how God can help you not feel so alone.

5. I've been thinking a lot about the fact that I'm single.  Yeah, what else is new.  But I'm glad I am.  I was wishing earlier that I was brave.  I wanted to believe that I could put myself out there, that I could really show guys I was interested in that I was interested in them!  But alas... I'm a giant chicken.  And that's ok.  Because I'm really ok with being patient.  Maybe it's all the soul searching I've done over the past 72 hours, but I really mean it this time.  I'm oddly ok with the fact that no guys are attracted to /want me, because it's only for right now.  I won't be single forever.  I have goals and aspirations and they'll come to pass in time.  I need to learn to be patient and I need to finish working on changing to become the ideal me.  I'm a hot mess right now, I don't blame any guys for not wanting to step in this hot mess (even if it is a hawt hot mess).  I've been listening to people whine and complain about people cheating on them, wandering eyes, how difficult life is, and how they can't find anyone that embodies all the qualities that they want.  I find it interesting that people are so busy worrying about what they want, they forget that they might not have all the qualities that other people want... Isn't it ironic?  Hahaha.  So mayhaps, if I work on being a better person, eventually some poor shmuck will think I'm the bees knees.  Love is a choice.  I honestly and whole heartily believe this.  Attraction is not, but love is.  This life is all about making choices.  We get to choose who we want to love, who we want to be with, and who our life companion will be. AWESOME.   


Life is awesome.  


And so are you my dah'lings!


I love you.


~Mych